I’m deaf.

September 6, 2016

“Can you hear me now?” (pun intended)

As I write this, I’m deaf.

Well, not exactly deaf. Not completely. I am without normal hearing.

About 10 days ago I flew back from Rochester with an upper respiratory infection I got from a kid who sat behind us hacking and coughing for four hours on the way TO Rochester. The ailment put M to bed for three days but I rallied through the trip and flew home sick. Immediately upon ascent, my ears stopped up and didn’t even make attempts to unstop after the flight. I was hearing impaired and not for the first time, either.

Is yucky a medical term?

I waited it out a week and then called my fancy concierge doctor. Because in my bag of tricks from a previous ear bout, I had a shiz-load of leftover prednisone, which, if taken in massive enough doses, could recover the hearing that seems to be lost, as long as there’s no nerve damage. This was Thursday and on Tuesday–today– I was due to fly to Maui to hang with our friends. I didn’t want to burst my ear drum flying, so I was willing to cancel if it wasn’t medically ok, because for sure I have to fly east to school at the end of the month. Maui was a vacation; school is mandatory. Or I have to wait another year to finish.

“I know it’s yucky, but wait it out and text me Monday,” my doctor texted me. “Use cortisone nasal spray, Claritin and Afrin in the meantime.”

I grumbled a bit after I read the text. I wasn’t sure what good texting her on Labor Day was going to do, especially less than 24 hours before our flight. So a few hour later I called my ENT, the one our doctor had referred me to a few years before when I had atypical cochlear Meniere’s for the second time. The one who told me I had floppy eustachian tubes that could give me trouble like this periodically.

I do love my ENT. She has a super-dry sense of humor that goes with her super-direct competence. She’s the perfect doctor-match for me. She had no openings but her nurse slid me in to her lunch spot for the following day.

Doc walked into the exam room and stuck out her hand to say hello. I won’t tell you her name, but her parents gave her a first name that’s pronounced like her last name, unfortunately. Or fortunately, because it’s so memorable. But seriously, who would do that to a kid? Anyway, if you live in the South Bay (northern Calif.) and need a great ENT, message me privately. Any back to Dr. J.

Doctor or faith healer?

“I like you a lot, Dr. J,” I said, “but really, I didn’t really want to see you again, not here. Can’t we meet in a bar or restaurant instead?”

“Yeah, or in a grocery store,” she responded. Of course, I do remember the day I saw my GYN at a cocktail party and couldn’t place him without his white coat or his position between my knees. But I digress.

At that moment, my ears cleared. She had done nothing but enter the room.

“Ok, it’s amazing, but my ears are as clear as they’ve been in more than a week,” I told her.

“I’m a healer,” she responded, deadpan. Like I said, we get each other. Why isn’t she a primary care doctor? I fumed to myself. My primary care doc doesn’t get me. At all. Anyway, the clearing was only temporary. Momentary.

We had a little discussion about my floppy eustachian tubes, she looked in and saw fluid, and basically said this:

deaf“Prednisone is the nuclear bomb for this stuff,” she said. “You know the side effects, you’ve taken it before, but it will knock it out if you haven’t done nerve damage.”

I told her about my leftover stash from last time, when I took it for weeks. I know people don’t like to take prednisone, it can be pretty nasty. But I like to hear. And take planes. I told her I was also willing to cancel my flight to Maui if it were medically necessary.

“I don’t like to tell people to cancel a trip but I WILL tell you what the risks are,” she said. “I’m just delighted we have five days until you fly–most patients come in with this the day before their flight!”

Together, we set on plan. I’d zoom home and begin massive prednisone, tapering down over nine days, but pretty big doses. I’d use steroid nasal spray, too. And I should be prepared to speed for the front half of that, because prednisone does that. But really, it didn’t bother me last time and of course, I’m the girl who routinely went to sleep after snorting coke back in the day.

Let’s make a deal!

Our deal went further. If in three days it didn’t clear, I’d cancel Maui and I’d call her immediately to get a hearing test to ensure I hadn’t any permanent loss due to nerve damage.

“You remember last time,” she reminded me. “I had you come in immediately for a hearing test, which showed that it wasn’t nerve damage.”

I love Dr. J and zoomed home to unleash nuclear war on my floppy eustachians.

I texted my internist the plan. Her response was, “Bummer.”

Yes, she’s been in California too long, I think. I couldn’t resist texting back:

Not a big deal. It’s not cancer.

That’s the thing. Aging? It’s all full of these little nits, these things that we hope aren’t serious, but they bug us.  Since I’d sped over to Dr. J’s from a physical therapy appointment, I was only too aware of this. I’ve lived long enough to get floppy eustachian tubes and a  (literal) pain in the ass.

That’s a good thing, right?

I’m only joking. I know it is. Plenty of people in my circle have far more serious issues to contend with. I feel lucky.

How the story ended. Well, maybe not ended.

I cancelled my trip to Maui. The prednisone did mostly clear my ears, but not completely. Clear for a while, then not. I just didn’t want to risk the flight and being so far from my ENT.  I’ll call her today to check in and see if I really need a hearing test. Probably.

We were disappointed to not be able to relax in Maui, but I know it’s the right thing. Health first.

That’s the way we roll in our senior years.

32 comments on “I’m deaf.
  1. ryder ziebarth says:

    Snorting coke then going to bed…..you are too funny. And yes, I wish I could do that these days, instead of flipping a coin….heads, open heart for that annoying floppy mitral valve that has gone for years from mild to just recently, severe and needs repair pretty soon OR…tails, removing the years old herniated disc in my neck that could potentially cause paralysis if say, I got rear ended or say, slipped on a banana peel at the Stop and Shop.Seems like yesterday I was worrying about which pair of shoes to buy….. Aging is an interesting process!

  2. If I could find a doctor to cure my headaches (currently seeing an ENT) I would be beyond thrilled. Next stop – acupuncture.

  3. Lori says:

    “That’s the way we roll in our senior years.” LoL! I had that nasty upper respiratory infection too this summer. I rolled from Minute Clinic, to Internist, to Chiropractor, back to Internist. Glad you’re on the mend!

  4. Lori says:

    Oh, I love your picture with this post!

  5. Oh, no, Carol. I’m sorry you had to cancel your trip, and I hope your hearing comes back to normal. I pulled some muscle probably playing tennis and it took me weeks to finally realize I should stop playing tennis for a week or two. This aging thing is not for the weak of heart.

  6. Diane says:

    Yep. Rolling past Maui. Sigh.
    I had my ears quit working early this spring. Not fun. Especially when you have multiple small people trying to get your attention. Wait a minute. Hmmm . . . how do I get this again?

  7. Lynne Cobb says:

    Sorry you missed your trip 🙁 Glad to see you can find a little humor in the situation…guess that is a midlife perk 🙂

  8. Andi says:

    You have to know what is right for you – and not always listen to the experts

  9. I spent the last few days dealing with my ears as well. I thought it was an ear infection but now it seems to be getting better. I just used some homeopathic ear drops and took a Zyrtec. My ears pop especially if I spend too much time on the computer. No one can figure it out. I’m beginning to think doctors just guess.

  10. Jennifer says:

    Well, canceling Maui does suck, but your hearing is more important. BTW…I’d love your Dr’s name. I have chronic sinus and ear infections and my local ENT is a dweeb. Hope it clears up permanently.

  11. ricki says:

    Never happy about it, but I’ve been on and off “short courses” of prednisone for most of my adult life. I figure dying from asthma is worse than taking it.I hate the side effects,etc, but when it’s the only alternative,it’s the only alternative.

  12. Thanks for sharing. I have issues with my ears and balance too. They think it might be Meniere’s, but also possibly, not. So there’s that.

  13. sue says:

    Such a shame to have to cancel your trip but I’ve had those infections and they can be quite painful. Wisdom prevailed – there will always be Maui!

  14. Nellwyn says:

    Sorry to hear you had to cancel your trip! That’s such a pain but at least your ears have cleared up a bit.

  15. GiGi Eats says:

    Health ALWAYS comes first. Because without your health – you have NOTHING… You would have NONE of those experiences that you unfortunately had to miss… But you can always create new ones once you’re back to 100% healthy!

  16. Chei says:

    Your safety is more important. You can still go anywhere now. Glad your ok.

  17. Rosemond says:

    Your doc sounds like a keeper. Who doesn’t love a Dr. who has an actual sense of humor and a dry one at that! Sorry your trip was cancelled by yes, that is how we roll in midlife!

  18. Annie says:

    I once got an ear infection…And form that time on I constantly feel “pressure” in my ears, occasionally because there’s fluid clogging my Eustachian tube, or simply because air pressure somehow creates in there…

    It doesn’t effect my hearing MUCH, but it’s an extremely annoying feeling.

  19. Elizabeth O. says:

    That’s terrible, you were there to enjoy and suddenly you’re running to your doctor having your ears checked. I’m sorry about your trip to Maui but health is definitely a priority! Good job on not being so tempted to just go and have fun.

  20. Nicole Escat says:

    I’m so sorry about your trip! But, I’m really glad that you have a good doctor, and also I’m glad that you first thought about your health.

  21. Sorry to hear that you missed your trip. Your safety is more important and glad to hear you’re OK!

  22. Well, I think you did the right thing. Maui’s a great place but getting your hearing to 100% won’t be able to wait.I think we can generally vote for “yucky” as an acceptable medical term, haha.

  23. Mimi says:

    I’m such a flunker with medics….will do anything to avoid a trip to the docs. Tails back to horrendous hospital first birth…two-and-a-half decades ago but still makes me shudder. Love your commonsense approach ….. growing older does usually mean dealing with health blips and I know not all medics are the same. Time maybe to get that creaky knee checked out.

  24. That sucks! Hawaii is one of the two states I haven’t been to yet. I bet it is beautiful! I’m sorry you are going through this with your ears. It happened to me about a year ago and I’m sure it won’t be the only time, but it’s annoying as hell.I am on Prednisone too and it keeps me hopping like I’m on speed. Not complaining, though, because I get a lot accomplished when I’m taking it. I thought I was the only one who could fall asleep after snorting coke in my 20’s. Used to amaze my husband!

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