Seeing life more clearly

May 21, 2011

Tears are words the heart can’t express.

My writing exercises last week brought me back deep into my past, deeper than I’ve been in a very long time. The memories came back tentatively at first, and then, like a storm surge, they came in a rush that threatened to overwhelm me.

I wrote.

Having dredged up feelings that had been long-buried,
I then spent the day crying at everything.

I cried at television shows and sad songs.

At pleas to help sick children.

At the plight of Bryan Stow.
(I’m still crying for him and maybe always will.)

At books and stories.

I cried for my losses and I cried for my gifts.

I cried with sadness, I cried with joy.

Emotions right at the surface, I cried at my past,
my present and my future,
all for different reasons.

It was cleansing, a release, but it was also exhausting.

“Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears
once in a while, so we can see life with
a clearer view again.” – attributed to author Alex Tan

Seems like that is true for how we see
the life we live now and our past, don’t you think?

Perhaps I haven’t done enough crying in my life.

So much more to write; so many more tears to shed.

4 comments on “Seeing life more clearly”
  1. Anonymous says:
    May 22, 2011 at 12:57 pm

    Dear Diva,

    I really enjoyed your blog.

    I feel as if I have made peace with all things in my life. I am happier than I have ever been. I am a drama free,productive, peaceful and fun human being! I get all of this LIFE thing now. I understand what I need to know and I appreciate all the lessons that I have learned. I love the person I have become and have been working on for a long time.

    That said I am just BEING.

    Namaste!

    Reply
  2. Middle-aged Diva (Carol) says:
    May 22, 2011 at 2:40 pm

    What a great feeling it is to be at peace and happy. xoxo

    Reply
  3. Anne in Oxfordshire says:
    May 22, 2011 at 4:43 pm

    I would love to feel happiness within .. instead of the jitters most of the time .. !

    Reply
  4. Middle-aged Diva (Carol) says:
    May 22, 2011 at 6:36 pm

    Anne, I’ll have a post about that soon….;-)))

    Reply

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