|La Jolla Cove, February 2013
I felt… (in such an ordered existence) something amiss….
…the fever in my blood asked for a wilder course.
There seemed to me something alarming in such easy delights.
In my heart was a desire to live more dangerously.
I was not unprepared for jagged rocks and treacherous shoals
if I could only have change — change and the excitement of the unforeseen.
-William Somerset Maugham in The Moon and Sixpence
“Yes, YES!” I practically cried aloud when I read this the other day in the tome our reading group will discuss this week. Rarely have I come across a passage that expresses so well the way I’ve chosen to live.
Sure, by some reckoning, it’s not been wild at all, but in comparison with the way most people have lived, well, it’s Maugham’s wilder course and I highly recommend it.
That’s why when people ask me if I wish M. and I had stayed married all those years in between, I answer, “Hell, no!” I loved every bit of the bumpy ride that’s been my life and if I didn’t love it at the time, I certainly love it in retrospect.
Yes, there are times when I look at folks all cozy in their traditional lives, with kids, grandkids, a house they’ve lived in forever and friends that live within shouting distance, and I do long for that kind of stability.
And then I shake it off, realizing, “nahh, you’d just get bored and do something to shake things up.”
|LaJolla, February 2013
You don’t have to traverse peaks and valleys your entire life to enjoy the adventure of taking risks and living from the heart. You can choose to do it a little at at time. Still….there’s nothing like the excitement of the unforeseen, not knowing what’s around the next bend in the road. It’s a damn fun way to live.
So, like I say to young people all the time, “Take the E-ticket ride and never look back!”
You’ll never regret it.